Doing a runner!

RUN ..RUN ...NOT TURNING BACK
i shut my ears and close my eyes and roll in a speed of thunder
"it's gonna get you.. no matter where you run..
It''s going to haunt you..
you can not hide anymore, not even inside yourself
pretend to be someone else"
"or maybe doubt all your alarming sense
out of breath but no stopping
out of place, out of reason
out of mind .. OUT"
running running running till the break of dawn
running running running racing time and space
until when? will she see.. all these mirrors
All the mirrors are reflecting the face she avoids
and the wind blows the way she's running from
and all the birds and all the trees.. all the scars on her knees
all the trails and mountains, river..sand, the palms of her hand
all the pebbles on the ground and the waves..the clouds and the moon
all the smiles and the cries and stars, all the galaxies
all the parallel lives , all the black holes in the universe
screams ..
THE TRUTH.

she knows.
lesson learned! , she's not running no more!
truth got her, got her by the soul
.. once, twice.. infinitive
..repetitive!
..
shaky legs, and teary eyes
with a heart that can almost stopping-beating
rising..  fainting, fighting..hanging on a thread
once a cowered .. tired of it being lost in her chaotic crowd
like a worn out warrior; a scaredy soldier
one wobbly step..
like a baby who's learning to walk
she's walking to the light
running back..
seeking truth!

I thought!...

I thought, thought ...thought and i thought!..
and my thinking haven't lead me anywhere but to square one!
Back to this hunch... this pinching-stranger-feeling inside my heart
i'd like to put it all aside but....
I know... where this maze is leading!
i see it from here... i see it from here
like invisible smoke flying in the air
dancing and shouting in my face,....HEY!
...
And no matter how hard i try...
to avoid the thoughts... they haunt me
they lock my arms and sew my mouth
and cuff my two feet!
..
Oh those feelings... Oh those fire alarms
Oh those voices in my head!