The whole thing for me is fatal...
Since days below the-out-of-portal
before the countdown began!
it began before she even existed!
a selfish, controlling and destroyed authority ; mom!
a fearful image of a cell-guard in a form of a small god ; dad!
and a lonely embryo swimming in a sea of darkness- don't get me out of here! ;her
TOO LATE!.
Imagine this.
An adult who never learned to swim, always been in a shallow water a little pond or a small lake or by the sea-shore playing in the sand watching people splashing by! Imagine this person being pushed into the wide ocean. with all his/her body weight and this and no ground underneath his panicked feet!
Life is a about learning you see!, what if your whole life you only have been learning to drown!!!
You see it everyday around you, it became a normal scenery and a way of living to see people drown and you think HEY, this feels wrong i won't let this body sink!
but that's only in your head! your idea of something isn't the same when actually experiencing it- mind you for the first time! with all weight you got, strange idea planted in your head , weight on your shoulders and on your knees! strange beliefs! and you thought you in your head "imagined" could make your way to the wild roaring sea as a swimmer or a beginner but WOOOPS.. blob blob you're heading to sea-bed!
That's what happened!
Insecurities, dependable independence, inherited sickness, worthlessness and worries,abandonment,...things you have seen and been applied to you all your life that made you the way you are, locked in your subconscious , there's no way for you to know it exists until you HAVE your own experience!
you would think you'd make an expert, you would think you won't make the mistakes again and again and again. you wouldn't think you'd fall in the trap of doing the things you have always been aware of always been criticizing.
So the sleeping troubled person inside you arises, problems, fear, blame, doubt, jealousy, lonesome, GUILT, self-pity, carelessness and REVENGE!.
how can you learn to swim through life when you are in a pool of your own insecurities and painful childhood, apathetic selfish parents!
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miss-conceptua TV and Movies are your only source of love and affection. Only made belief ideas that has nothing to do with reality!
We are here to learn, it's never too late to learn to gradually let go of your weight and miss beliefs, wrong theories and false religion.
It's never too late to learn and be BORN again.
to give birth to your OWN self, your individuality!
Then and only then YOUR life begins!
(The sad part is the time wasted and people you lose in the process.
All valuable things that let go of you.)
Since days below the-out-of-portal
before the countdown began!
it began before she even existed!
a selfish, controlling and destroyed authority ; mom!
a fearful image of a cell-guard in a form of a small god ; dad!
and a lonely embryo swimming in a sea of darkness- don't get me out of here! ;her
TOO LATE!.
Imagine this.
An adult who never learned to swim, always been in a shallow water a little pond or a small lake or by the sea-shore playing in the sand watching people splashing by! Imagine this person being pushed into the wide ocean. with all his/her body weight and this and no ground underneath his panicked feet!
Life is a about learning you see!, what if your whole life you only have been learning to drown!!!
You see it everyday around you, it became a normal scenery and a way of living to see people drown and you think HEY, this feels wrong i won't let this body sink!
but that's only in your head! your idea of something isn't the same when actually experiencing it- mind you for the first time! with all weight you got, strange idea planted in your head , weight on your shoulders and on your knees! strange beliefs! and you thought you in your head "imagined" could make your way to the wild roaring sea as a swimmer or a beginner but WOOOPS.. blob blob you're heading to sea-bed!
That's what happened!
Insecurities, dependable independence, inherited sickness, worthlessness and worries,abandonment,...things you have seen and been applied to you all your life that made you the way you are, locked in your subconscious , there's no way for you to know it exists until you HAVE your own experience!
you would think you'd make an expert, you would think you won't make the mistakes again and again and again. you wouldn't think you'd fall in the trap of doing the things you have always been aware of always been criticizing.
So the sleeping troubled person inside you arises, problems, fear, blame, doubt, jealousy, lonesome, GUILT, self-pity, carelessness and REVENGE!.
how can you learn to swim through life when you are in a pool of your own insecurities and painful childhood, apathetic selfish parents!
\
miss-conceptua TV and Movies are your only source of love and affection. Only made belief ideas that has nothing to do with reality!
We are here to learn, it's never too late to learn to gradually let go of your weight and miss beliefs, wrong theories and false religion.
It's never too late to learn and be BORN again.
to give birth to your OWN self, your individuality!
Then and only then YOUR life begins!
(The sad part is the time wasted and people you lose in the process.
All valuable things that let go of you.)
