Ever Enough

Nothing I do is ever enough!
and I do more than I can handle
you're asking for sympathy
you're asking for understanding
while I have given all that I had
in me
Now, where are those things
that you're asking me of?
Where's sympathy for me?
Where's understanding?

Take, Take, Take
Demand
Amount Due
dangle the carrot
beat it with a stick

If i was a well it would be empty
but you say I'm the sun
infinite power
even in the dark
I'm always present
but if you get closer
you'll see
in order to shine
I have to be consistently burning

SACRIFICE!

sacrifice for what?
what price?
sex?
company?
blame?

what's the sacrifice for?
price for being alive?
or being selfless?

still,

In the midst of blazing my time out
Like a  modern Joan Of Arch
ashing my dreams away
my youth
my potentials

Still

its not enough

In Plane Sight

Now that I've learned how to shine

after decades of self exile

I'll put the mask on

hidden, In plane sight

People will try to use you

in whichever way they can

we're built this way

Human nature if you may, say

I sympathies, I understand  

A light switch 

keeps me camouflaged 

what you see is what you get

when you're looking in my eyes

It's not an act of deception

to be who you're. On terms 

it's all about perception 

would you look deep enough

to see more than your reflections?

I used to be dazed and confused

asking million why's

used to feeling used

I thought that was the only way

until there was nothing left

Juts a shell of what was 

and there was nothing anymore

So I learned to break free

playing by the rules

I used to be bottled up 

now I'm in control
by losing control
all I wanted was a safe space
to scream and shout
to cry out loud
just couldn't find such place
so I had to let it all go
all the weights on my shoulders
I had to drop 'em all on the floor
It took a moment
a century
coming inside out
sewing those tears in my soul
rebuilding these broken wings

and learning how to fly

it's not so late

now that I find

who I rally  am

and who I was meant to become 

It might take longer

but I'm taking back my crown