Suffocated

Suffocated

When do I ever get a break.

You have the luxury to sit and wait

Just do whatever you please

and I'm here hurrying, worrying and carrying

everyone's weight on my shoulders

If I'm not running around 

I'm drowning within myself

demands

questions

expectations

obligations

phone calls

due dates 

status awaits 

on hold, delays 

& so the list goes

I'm tired

I say i'm tired

but who listens 

I'm tired

of all the loads

of blame 

of shame

of playing games

and pointing fingers

you excuse yourself

you're this, you're that

but then order me around

and expect me to do as you please

with a drop of a hat

matter of fact

I'm fed up

I'm done

down

I'm numb 

Suffocated 

and I think I swallowed too much 

salt water in my mouth

my eyes

my bones 

it burns 

So I'll leave it at that

a gasp of air

in the middle of my despair

I'm done expecting anyone to care

So I'll keep calm and carry on 

It's just life 

It's all good

There's nothing wrong 

just part of being human 

suffocated at birth 

and occasional need for oxygen 

a constant need for growth 

no time to self loathe 

I get it

I got it

it's all good

it's all good