A wave of emotions keeps crashing on me... once im the wave i keep rolling endlessly once up and once down..
wake up with a wave of love and longing, hours later with rage and dispise fllowed by some strange energy to break free from walls and curtains any material that blocks my free spirit.
gazing at the sun before it sets am i gazing at it or is it gazing at me? i always wonder
stars are eyes in the sky but they dont scare me, i always look forward looking in their eyes too, its like love, you can swin deep inside your lover soul by just looking into their eyes, they say that stars are human souls soaring up high, trapped and keeping us companied..isnt sun a big star? a closer star i wounder whos soul is it that is gazing at me while am gazing at it?
am still riding the wave of my crazy emotions. it ends up with boredom, blame.. sometimes i blame myself, others i find theres no room to blame me or anyone. keep thinking about other things. i remember some accidents or situations and suddenly .. I GET IT .. i laugh because its already too late but who cares they say too late is better than nothing!
some people dont have sense of humour, some do... but some dont understand the other types of laughter, a laugh is not always funny.. just like comedy, its not always comic, theres something called "black comedy".. like magic, theres something called "black magic" some people dont get that too.. they only get either the word "magic" or "comic" abd forget the word "black".. it changes everything.
thats when im on my own, i think im crazy sometimes, no , most of the times, those waves of emotions cant set me free, im trapped in a phase to the opposing other in a split of a second, from love to hate, from forgivness to revenge.
i wish i can find a way to ride contgrol the tides... at least understand whats behind it.
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